...in with the new

I woke up this morning to find my mouth completely parched. As I peeled my tongue off of the roof of my mouth I remembered that the cause of the dehydration, as well as that terrible taste is a very mild cold, symptoms of which I started to feel last night. All day I have been feeling tired, old and generally out of sorts, with achy joints and muscles. Last night I slept over at Timi's, watched an old favorite movie and talked until I fell asleep. This afternoon went to the beach for a little while, then came home and ran online errands consisting of credit card bills and necessary emails. Tonight, Timi, Kriszta and I went to the movies and watched Enchanted, which turned out to be really funny and cute. Then for coffee and conversation. Overall, a good day, and yet as I was driving home I couldn't help feeling as if I'd missed something. As if there was something I should have done and didn't. The more I thought about it and the more I talked through it with Timi, the more I realized that it wasn't just a temporary feeling. It has slowly been snowballing all year long, and is something so basic that I couldn't believe I haven't felt it this strongly yet. So now it's time to face it.
I am lonely.
There. Happy? Yes, I am in fact lonely, and in need of being touched, in need of attention - sexual, mental, whatever! That is what I should have been doing throughout this year, and haven't. The responsibility I felt was to myself, and I have been very negligent in this respects. There are definitely some very big reasons for why I have denied myself this, and have sometimes gone out of my way to avoid certain encounters, it is still no excuse for letting myself get so out of practice in the art of coquettery. But now it has been too long and I will be parched no more.